Hi Thank you all for your kind words i really appreciate it....Ill start back with what happened next please excuse all grammer, ok its the 27/08/2010 ive woken up knowing my life would not be the same from today i go into my sons room and gave him a hug then to my daughters room who was sitting in bed listening to music she got up and said Dad Be Strong you will be ok with that a nice big HUG i make way downstairs and there behold my faithful little staffy jumping up to greet me and my wife cooking breakfast i gae her a kiss and washed up and then took my dog out for a walk.........

I Lit my 1st Cigarette of the day looking at everything trying not to miss a thing knowing ill never see again out my left eye...
took for ever to walk my dog my normal run is a hour but today 2 hours .....I get home my familys all sad only daughter can raise a smile i did not even want to eat but sake of family i eat.friends relatives came to see me and then it was TIME never forget that feeling leaving the home my daughter who wasthe strongest just brokedown i held her andshe ran in.......4.00PM and waving bye we turned round the block and finally broke down with Mrs trying to comfort me...

Got to hospital and there after couple Hours Dr came in and basically described the procedure they made it sound like nothing lol so tmw was the big day
Surgery planned at 10am all the family around again i have to wait to sign forms ....930 THE WHOLE TEAM COME to explain again now this time it hit home
Oncologist explained that this is how they will perform surgery will take 23hours 1st a incicionwill be made from top of nose bridge along th side of nose to centre of lip that skin will be pulled left to expose eye area and then the cheek thn they would have to kill the eye with a 11inch rod now im ****ting myself

Then they carried on saying all my teeth will have to be removed but implants will be put instead that knocked me for 6 but that wasnt it they also told me my bone from my left shoulder will be removed to reconstruct my face after...... My daughter goesoutand faints me as a fool try to get outof bed to get to her but im full o tubes......Oncologist gives the order and off we go my mind is blank at this time ....im in the anethestic dept getting cheerd up by Nurses anethestic administered and bye bye world

To Be Continued